what am i doing wrong? i just cannot figure it out. within the last two months i've had two guys just stop talking to me out of nowhere, and i don't even know why. or maybe it's not even about me, maybe it was them? i can't help but blame myself.

i kind of understand why the first one didn't work out. we are in two different places in our lives and it was just hard to deal with right now. i have too much experience, and he has not enough. we just wanted different things out of the relationship. i'm ready for something long term and serious, and he's still just having fun. i understand that though, he's still growing up. maybe we'll try again in a year or two? probably not though. i just hope it's not too awkward the next time i have to be around him.

this second one though.... i just don't get. we'd hung out a couple of times and things were great. i saw potential. then last friday we hung out and i was kind of in a bad mood so i was being a little bratty. but not mean bratty, i was just making a lot of smart alec-y remarks to him. he kept telling me all night that i was being mean. then when i left, he hugged and kissed me and told me to call him saturday. so saturday we texted a little but he was busy with his friends. then sunday i tried to text him. no answer. monday i tried texting him. no answer. i also tried calling twice on mondy. no answer. a text, a call, and a voicemail on tuesday. still no answer. WTF?!?!! his best friend doesn't even know what his deal is (or so he says).

i really just want to give up. i deserve better.... more. why can't anyone seem to give that to me?